Consolations... Or Not

In searching for words,

I found illusions;

In searching for love,

I found none;

In capturing fireflies,

I forgot they were mortal;

Butterflies can also suffocate and die.

In loving nature, I forgot what I use to write;

In dreaming,  I forgot fantasies in life;

In searching for Truth,  I found aporias instead;

In simplistic binaries,

I found gray shades.

Scaling walls so high,

I forgot to look at the view from the top

The cool wind makes my hair cover my face,

In pushing them away, i pushed you back

Come back- I wait now,

Come to me, I seek nothing anymore;

In seeking that dream,

I forgot my life;

In death, then,

Let us embrace;

Let me feel what it is to die;

Let me not hope for an afterlife

© Geetakshi Arora, April 26, 2013